Laying in bed
I stare at the ceiling
Watching the shadows pass by
I want to get up but I can't
Feeling like my body is full of lead
Restless I think of the hopeful child I used to be
Running through my silk fields
Not a care in the world
But now I am older
Wondering what is wrong with the world
Wishing I was the same little girl years back
But now I am a young woman
And I am hopeless
I watch the stars pass in the sky
I wish I was up there
Not knowing,
Not caring
But now I know better
I am a woman of sorts
And I am hopeless
